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Feeling Vulnerable

When I quit work, I let go a boat load of anxiety and stress. Now I love staying at home for hours on end. I can do what I want when I feel the impulse go through me. I have taken up all kinds of extra interests and hobbies. Leaving work was the best move I ever made in my adult life. I was thoroughly done with pleasing others at my own expense and having to suffer fools. While I enjoyed some of my colleagues, there were as many that I detested. I miss the income and have had to find others ways to earn a living. Meanwhile, I am writing this blog to share what has happened in my life since my departure from work.

Sitting in the kitchen sipping a cup of hot coffee, it suddenly occurred to me that I have done nothing to protect myself from home invasion. I was never a fanatic about self-defense, but recently I have become concerned given the crime statistics in the surrounding area. While nothing has happened to date on my block, it could at any time and situations have been reported a few streets away. So what does a homeowner do? I have read online and talked with others and realize that first and foremost, we need a neighborhood watch. I don’t know if I want to run it, but I will certainly participate. It can be a very good method of protection if so many people are on the lookout for trouble. It may not be enough to ensure complete safety, but it will no doubt help immensely. At least the residents here will feel more confident and at peace. There is a lot to say for sleeping soundly at night and not fearing an intruder.

Beyond a neighborhood watch, you can buy a weapon but this gives me the shivers. I can’t imagine using it, but they say that people do in really tense cases where you feel threatened. I can install an alarm as an alternative. But how long do you have to wait for a response? I imagine it seems like hours while you cower in fear. Yikes. I am feeling very vulnerable. Looking up other tactics online at https://www.selfdefenseguide.org, I see that you can buy pepper spray, stun guns, Tasers, and the like. They add up to a great survival kit. Why not keep a small mace sprayer in your backpack or handbag and one in your nightstand. If I do this, will I calm down? I am getting panicky and worked up—it’s in my nature. I am not going to run out and learn a martial art, but I can prepare for the worst in other ways.

Friends say that I am on the right track because once you are super prepared, nothing ever happens. I like that idea. In the meantime, I have to stop reading about local crime and put away those police reports that scare me to death.